Chapter V - Testi
1) Run Away
2) Right Here
3) Paper Jesus
4) Schizophrenic Conversations
5) Falling
6) Cross To Bear
7) Devil
8) Please
9) Everything Changes
10) Take This
11) King Of All Excuses
12) Reply
13) Let It Out
14) Novocaine
15) Open Wide
RUN AWAY
I'm still scared. Afraid of failing
Anticipating, the ride to end.
before the wheels begin to move.
(Run away) So I can hide.
(Run away) I've mastered feeling nothing.
(Run away) I'm dead inside.
(Run away) Why don't I care?
Waste my time, commiserating,
Self medicating - it's my design
Although I know you don't approve
(Run away) So I can hide.
(Run away) I've mastered feeling nothing.
(Run away) I'm dead inside.
(Run away) Why don't I care?
The truth is that I'm not so good
At showing how I feel.
Or keeping my mouth shut
When there's something to conceal.
Or knowing how to love,
Love's not in my memories
How can I rise above
All my insecurities
(Run away) So I can hide.
(Run away) I've mastered feeling nothing.
(Run away) I'm dead inside.
(Run away) Why don't I care?
(Run away) I fight the tide
(Run away) The ebb and flow consuming
(Run away) Still by my side
(Run away) Why should you care?
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RIGHT HERE
I know I've been mistaken
But just give me a break and see the changes that I've made
I've got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all and throw them in my face
But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting
I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending it's as much as i can take
and you're so independent
you just refuse to bend so I keep bending till I break
But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting
I've made a commitment
I'm willing to bleed for you
I needed fulfillment
I found what I need in you
Why can't you just forgive me
I don't want to relive all the mistakes I've made along the way
But I always find a way to keep you right here waiting
I always find the words to say to keep you right here waiting
But you always find a way
To keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if I chose to walk away would you be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep me right here waiting
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PAPER JESUS
You take this all for granted
All the things they choose to feed you
By keeping you distracted
Just long enough to bleed you...dry
A reason for your anger
It's what I need
It's what I need
To recognize the truth
It's what I need
It's what I need
So burn your paper Jesus
It's what I need
It's what I need
And own the things you do
It's what I need
It's what I need
Question what they sell you
All the lies that they are teaching
And they've made a corporation
Out of desperate people's feelings...of fear
A reason for your anger
It's what I need
It's what I need
To recognize the truth
It's what I need
It's what I need
So burn your paper Jesus
It's what I need
It's what I need
And own the things you do
It's what I need
It's what I need
Somebody chose these words for you
Interpretations of the truth
Somewhere behind your fear they hide
To fill the holes inside
A reason for your anger
It's what I need
It's what I need
To recognize the truth
It's what I need
It's what I need
So burn your paper Jesus
It's what I need
It's what I need
And own the things you do
It's what I need
It's what I need
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SCHIZOPHRENIC CONVERSATIONS
Are you afraid, afraid of the truth
In the mirror staring back at you.
The image is cracked but so is the view, yeah.
The strength of a tree begins in the roots
That I tend bury into you
At least now the storm can't blow me away.
So crawl inside my head with me.
I'll show you how it feels to be,
To blame like me.
Should I be afraid of this face that I see
In the mirror staring back at me?
So cold were the days where I listen to you.
And you say that I'm weak show me the proof
Because I still exist in spite of you
But I won't compete with you every day.
So crawl inside my head with me.
I'll show you how it feels to be,
To blame like me.
Schizophrenic conversations that
I'm always having with myself.
I hear these voices in my head competing.
Maybe I could use a little help
I still have schizophrenic conversations
Where there's no one else around to hear.
I long for solitude and peace within me
Void of all the anger and the fear.
So crawl inside my head with me.
I'll show you how it feels to be,
Fucked up like me.
I'll show you how it feels to be
To blame like me
Ashamed like me
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FALLING
You
In your shell
Are you waiting for someone to rescue you
From yourself
Don't be disappointed when no one comes
Don't blame me you didn't get it
Don't blame me you didn't get it
Don't blame me you didn't get it
I already told you that falling is easy
It's getting back up that becomes the problem
Becomes the problem
If you don't believe you can find a way out
You've become the problem
Become the problem
You
All alone
Are you waiting for someone to make you whole?
Can't you see?
Aren't you tired of this dysfunctional routine?
Don't blame me you didn't get it
Don't blame me you didn't get it
Don't blame me you didn't get it
I already told you that falling is easy
It's getting back up that becomes the problem
Becomes the problem
If you don't believe you can find a way out
You've become the problem
Become the problem
I already told you that falling is easy
It's getting back up that becomes the problem
Becomes the problem
If you don't believe you can find a way out
You've become the problem
Become the problem
Falling is easy
It's getting back up that becomes the problem
Becomes the problem
And if you believe you can find a way out
Then you've solved the problem
You've solved your problem.
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CROSS TO BEAR
Twisting
Turning
Crashing
Burning
All this
Just to
Break me
Down
You dont know me
You dont see me
You dont own me cause I don't care
But I'm still here
Impatiently waiting for you to disappear
Is this my cross to bear
Faceless
Faking
Pushing
Taking
All this
Just to
Bring me
Down
You dont know me
You dont see me
You dont own me cause I don't care
But I'm still here
Impatiently waiting for you to disappear
Is this my cross to bear
You don't know me
You don't own me 'cause I'm aware
And I'm still here
Impatiently waiting for you to disappear
Is this my cross to bear
I'm still here
Reluctantly waiting for you to interfere
This is my cross to bear
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DEVIL
She sits alone again and tries her best not to pretend
that all she used to livefor was the love that wasn't there
And every time she needs to do the things
that she believes will fill the void inside of her cuz he was never there
And she says,
"I swear I'm not the devil
though you think I am.
I swear I'm not the devil."
And she says,
"I swear I'm not the devil
Though you think I am.
I swear I'm not the devil."
He tries to sleep again and wonders when the pain will end the cuts
they made run deeper than his cracking outer shell
He looks with tired eyes at all the people hypnotized
and wonders what can save him from a self-created hell
And he says,
"I swear I'm not the devil
though you think I am.
I swear I'm not the devil."
And he says,
"I swear I'm not the devil
Though you think I am.
I swear I'm not the devil."
I always fail to see the little things in front of me the things
that mean so much to you, a way to let you know
That I appreciate the way you always tolerate but sometimes
when I medicate frustration in you shows me how you feel
But I swear I'm not the devil
Though you think I am
I swear I'm not the devil
And I scream
I swear I'm not the devil
Though you think I am
I swear I'm not the devil
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PLEASE
Can't you see that I'm sick of this?
Chances are you're oblivious
To how I feel
Sitting on your throne
And I'm sure that I'm not alone
Not alone
Not alone
Tell me please
Who the fuck did you want me to be?
Was it something that I couldn't see?
Never knew this would be so political
And please
I'm still wearing this miserable skin
And it's starting to tear from within
But it's obvious that doesn't bother you
So please
I didn't think that you'd sell me out
Now I know what you're all about
You might feel in control of things
But you're not holding all the strings
All the strings
All the strings
Tell me please
Who the fuck did you want me to be?
Was it something that I couldn't see?
Never knew this would be so political
And please
I'm still wearing this miserable skin
And it's starting to tear from within
But it's obvious that doesn't matter to you
I swallowed all your answers
I've swallowed all my pride
You've used up all your chances
Can't keep this all inside
Tell me please
Who the fuck did you want me to be?
Was it something that I couldn't see?
Never knew this would be so political
And please
I'm still wearing this miserable skin
And it's starting to tear from within
But it's obvious that doesn't bother you
So please
Don't keep telling me that it's okay
I don't buy all the shit that you say
And quite honestly I'm fucking sick of it
So please
If I cut off this nose from my face
Then I wouldn't feel so out of place
But it still wouldn't be quite enough for you
So please
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EVERYTHING CHANGES
If you just walked away
What could I really say?
would it matter anyway?
would it change how you feel?
I am the mess you chose
the closet you can not close
The devil in you I suppose
'cuz the wounds never heal
But everything changes
if I could turn back the years
If you could learn to forgive me
then I could learn to feel
Sometimes the things I say
In moments of disarray
Succumbing to the games we play
To make sure that it's real
But everything changes
if I could turn back the years
If you could learn to forgive me
then I could learn to feel
When it's just me and you
Who knows what we could do
If we can just make it through
through this part of the day
But everything changes
if I could turn back the years
If you could learn to forgive me
then I could learn to feel
Then we could
Stay here together
And we could
Conquer the world
If we could
Say that forever
It's more than just a word
If you just walked away
What could I really say?
It wouldn't matter anyway.
It wouldn't change how you feel
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TAKE THIS
I can't believe how far I've gone
Watch me stumble and come undone
If you take away, these memories
All that's left, is just me
'Cause I don't want this
and I don't need this
and I don't feel this
It seems that even though she's with me I can't shake this
I can't fake this
and I won't take this anymore
So you choose to break my heart
Should have seen this from the start
I'm haunted by your apathy
All that's left is killing me
'Cause I don't want this
and I don't need this
and I don't feel this
It seems that even though she's with me I can't shake this
I can't fake this
and I won't take this anymore
You believe that the way you choose to be
I've always had to see
The brighter side of this so I don't lose my faith
Now the sun has gone away
It's getting colder everyday
So before I freeze to death there's something I should say
I don't want this
I don't need this
and I don't feel this
It seems that even though she's with me I can't shake this
and I can't fake this
and I won't take this anymore
And though you say you understand you still won't face this
Can't erase this
I won't embrace this anymore
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KING OF ALL EXCUSES
You, I trusted your intentions the trust you took advantage of now
You, are sitting in the hole that you dug around yourself.
You've lied so much you think it's true
Do you know what the truth is?
How does someone get to be like you?
The king of all excuses?
Is she your partner in deception caught inside the web you have spun?
Did you forget you have a family, the damage you have done?
You've lied so much you think it's true
Do you know what the truth is?
How does someone get to be like you?
The king of all excuses?
I trusted you. I trusted in you.
This time you're gonna get it
All the things that you have done are coming back to you
This time you're gonna feel it
Your conscience slowly suffocating you
In time you will regret it
Say goodbye to all the things you've gotten used to
Life will find a way to bring destruction to you
Life will find a way to bring destruction to you
You've lied so much you think it's true
Do you know what the truth is?
How does someone get to be like you?
The king of all excuses?
Everything must come full circle
It kills me that I feel this hurtful
I wonder what your children think of you,
The king of all excuses
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REPLY
I have seen
Too many sad eyes look at me
The eyes that set me free
All the places that I've been
Thank you for
The letters that you thought you wrote in vain
And for
The times you chose to stand out in the rain
And wait
For me
For me
Your words
Your words help me to see
A little honesty
In a world that doesn't share
And your eyes
Tell the story of your pain
Severity of your disdain
In a world that doesn't care
So thank you for
The letters that you thought you wrote in vain
And for
The times you chose to stand out in the rain
And wait
You
You understand my pain
From this I gather strength
In that we are the same
So thank you for
The letters that you thought you wrote in vain
And for
The times you chose to stand out in the rain
And wait
The life I live would never be the same
Without you here
You here
You here
Without you here
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LET IT OUT - Bonus Track in the Limited Edition
There's nothing left,
nothing left to hold on to.
There is no reason for me to fight anymore.
I let it all go.
It'll be easier I know,
the weight on my shoulders tells me so.
So now I stand here
to sing another song for you.
About the pain I felt before,
Now there's nothing I can do.
Now I stand here,
with nothing left to say to you.
And if you all could sing along,
it might help me make it through.
I try to move on,
nothin' left to hurt me now.
I hope it's all in the past to stay.
Just tryin' to see through
all the fucked up shit we do,
and hope that we all don't drift away.
So now I stand here
to sing another song for you.
About the pain I felt before,
now there's nothing I can do.
So now I stand here,
with nothing left to say to you.
And if you all could sing along,
it might help me make it through.
So let it all out,
nothin' left to hold on to.
There is no reason for me to fight anymore.
I let it all go.
Feels so much better now I know.
The weight on my shoulders tells me so.
So now I stand here
to sing another song for you.
About the pain I felt before,
now there's nothing I can do.
So now I stand here,
with nothing left to say to you.
And if you all could sing along,
it might help me make it through.
There's nothing left,
none of it's worth holding on to.
There is no reason for me to fight anymore.
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NOVOCAINE - Bonus Track in the Limited Edition
Impression and suffering
Depression and hostility
Obsession in vanity
All on the cover page
Soaking in
Saturates
Turns to grey
All these things
Novocaine
So we don't feel at all
Supression and genicide
Exploitation and homicide
Perfection and suicide
All on the cover page
Soaking in
Saturates
Turns to grey
All these things
Novocaine
Too desensitized to every day
To this life that we wage
So we don't feel at all
We don't feel at all.
We don't feel at all.
We don't feel at all.
We don't feel at all.
All these things
Novocaine
Too desentized every day
To this life that we wage
So we don't feel at all
We don't feel at all.
We don't feel at all.
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OPEN WIDE - Bonus Track in the Japanase Edition
Are you hungry?
Or is your conscience full?
Does it make, you, lonely?
To have these shoes to fill..
Open Wide and remember
All the shit they feed you
What's the point in believing
All the lies they feed you?
From your thoughts of submission
Blow you into slumber
Sleepy eyes can not see
Are we growing?
Or are we caving in?
With the smoke, your, blowing
Damaging my skin
Open Wide and remember
All the shit they feed you
What's the point in believing
All the lies they feed you?
From your thoughts of submission
Blow you into slumber
Sleepy eyes can not see
Open Wide and remember
All the shit they feed you
What's the point in believing
All the lies they feed you?
From your thoughts of submission
Blow you into slumber
Sleepy eyes can not see
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